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tsunami

Posted: August 14, 2013 in mission, news, personal
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Fear- and tear-inducing footage of the tsunami that devastated Japan in 2011.  You should watch the video to see how powerful Mother Nature can be.

The initial 3 minutes of the video shows the almost empty river, obviously the water has receded.  Sirens, announcements are blaring in the background.  I assume that people are being asked to move to a higher ground.

Then the water starts coming in and I think to myself, maybe this is town is very far from the places I saw on TV that were totally immersed in flood and debris.  But for 15 minutes, water kept on rushing.  The water in the river rose and rose until it overflowed into the streets and then into the nearby playground.  And then the water brought in small debris, and then cars and boats and finally houses!

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Penalizing Brilliance

Posted: July 28, 2013 in personal

Warning: RANT coming up… You have been warned.

I am good at what I do.  There’s no BS about that.  I am just stating a fact.

A few months ago, I had been thrust into an enormous project of which I have no experience of. I am almost surely under qualified for it too.  I said no of course. But to refuse was not acceptable.

I gave it my best, all I’ve got. And because of it, I shone like a big, bright star on the darkest night.

Then, there came the time for big changes in the organization. People were being transferred from one project to another.  Except me.  They don’t wanna touch me.  Despite and in spite of requests, which eventually turned to protests, to be relegated to another project where I know I will be better at.  They just wouldn’t touch me.

Now, I am miserable.  I am stuck in a project that I don’t like, longing for another project that I can’t have.  This is punishment akin to death penalty. Fuck brilliance.  I don’t wanna shine no more.

battle of the best

Posted: July 7, 2013 in personal, sports, tennis
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I hate disappointments.  I hate the feeling of a broken heart. So I am preparing myself for the worst. Tonight is the Men’s Finals at the most prestigious tennis championships – the Wimbledon.  It’s going to be a contest between the top 2 players right now – Novak Djokovic and Andy Murray.  I believe in Novak’s talent and I support him with all my heart, which is why I am distancing myself from this match and preparing my heart to accept that tonight, Britain might have its first ever Wimbledon Champion since Fred Perry via Andy.  The time is right. He is as prepared as he can be.  Everyone is behind him and probably invoking the support of all gods for his win.

In my heart of hearts, I desperately want Novak to win.  Even as I type this post, I cannot help but pray that he really ends up the champion.  But I don’t wanna get my hopes up and have them extinguished later on. Yes, anything can happen. But the pessimist in me is overactive right now and has been buzzing in my ear, telling me that Andy will win. I am giving in but still not letting go.

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dancing again

Posted: July 5, 2013 in dance, fun, personal
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I am learning a new dance, a challenging one, for me at least. This is something that I haven’t done in quite a while now. It’s tough. But it’s fun. And exciting. And painful. And I am loving every second of it.

My knees are sore from all the kneeling that’s required in the dance. My back is aching from all the arching and contracting that I have to do. My neck hurting from whipping my head left and right, up and down. But despite all these aches and pains that I feel, I am still excited, very much looking forward to the next dance session on Tuesday.

Four nights! I still have to wait four nights to learn the choreography to the next part of the song.  (more…)

nothingness

Posted: July 5, 2013 in personal
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We are always in a rush. We set our alarms very early in the morning. Get up. Prepare. Have breakfast. Shower. Dress up. Commute to work. Plan our day. Attend meetings. Write reports. Instruct staff. Follow up previous orders. Report to the boss. Have lunch. Go back to work. Attend more meetings. Make more reports. Answer emails. Answer calls. Make calls. Reprimand inefficient staff. Call for a meeting.  Prepare to go home. Commute. Go to the gym. Prepare dinner. Eat dinner. Watch the news while cleaning up. Prepare for the next day. Shower. Go to bed. Read reports and transcripts. Sleep. *Repeat*

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The cutest canines

Posted: May 4, 2013 in fun, personal
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Introducing the cutest dogs ever! Haha. Those are our dogs. From top left clockwise – Pilo, Chichi, JT and Chichi. Aren’t they adorable? =)

Apple is the oldest among them. JT, Chichi and Pilo’s offspring, was the youngest since about 2 weeks ago.
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My First…

Posted: May 3, 2013 in personal
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It’s about 10 days after my first hospital admission and first surgery. I am doing well but not yet back to my regular self. There’s still a bit of pain on the surgical sites when doing certain daily activities but I am generally good and feeling great.

Back in January, about the last week of the month, I had my annual general physical examination, which was required by the company I work for. I had the usual tests for my age group but I also complained of another matter, one that has been plaguing me for a year now. The doctor advised further examinations including an ultrasound of the entire abdomen.

Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, the ultrasound revealed a glaring 1.3 cm mass in my gall bladder. I got worried.  A mass is a mass. No matter the circumstances (I am young, a non-smoker, non-alcoholic beverage drinker, and I exercise regularly), as long as it has not been declared benign and safe, we always think of the possibility of the big C.

My being a doctor may have made matters worse. I know where to get more information so I did.  And the more information I read, the more grim everything became.  Studies reveal that solitary gall bladder masses with size greater than 1 cm have a higher chance of being malignant (i.e. cancerous).

I consulted my doctor-friends about it and they reassured me. I didn’t have the symptoms nor the danger signs of the big C so I need not worry, they all said.  I consulted experts in the field and they shared the same opinion.  They also advised laparoscopic cholecystectomy – surgical removal of the gall bladder using scopes.  It is a much more expensive but safer option (versus an open surgery, which requires a bigger incision and therefore longer recovery time).  It is a fairly common procedure and there are already a lot of experts here in the Philippines.

So the date of the surgery was set.  I was to be admitted for the first time in my life and undergo my first surgery on April 25.  You see, it took me a long time before I finally decided to have the surgery done.  I initially just wanted to observe, do a series of ultrasounds to monitor if the mass grew. Work, also, got in the way.  I couldn’t really think about what I needed to do because I was swamped with problems to solve, decisions to make, and meetings to attend.  I also had to consider the schedule of my sister who I asked to take care of me post-surgery. (more…)