Posts Tagged ‘personal’

dancing again

Posted: July 5, 2013 in dance, fun, personal
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I am learning a new dance, a challenging one, for me at least. This is something that I haven’t done in quite a while now. It’s tough. But it’s fun. And exciting. And painful. And I am loving every second of it.

My knees are sore from all the kneeling that’s required in the dance. My back is aching from all the arching and contracting that I have to do. My neck hurting from whipping my head left and right, up and down. But despite all these aches and pains that I feel, I am still excited, very much looking forward to the next dance session on Tuesday.

Four nights! I still have to wait four nights to learn the choreography to the next part of the song.  (more…)

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nothingness

Posted: July 5, 2013 in personal
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We are always in a rush. We set our alarms very early in the morning. Get up. Prepare. Have breakfast. Shower. Dress up. Commute to work. Plan our day. Attend meetings. Write reports. Instruct staff. Follow up previous orders. Report to the boss. Have lunch. Go back to work. Attend more meetings. Make more reports. Answer emails. Answer calls. Make calls. Reprimand inefficient staff. Call for a meeting.  Prepare to go home. Commute. Go to the gym. Prepare dinner. Eat dinner. Watch the news while cleaning up. Prepare for the next day. Shower. Go to bed. Read reports and transcripts. Sleep. *Repeat*

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Summer vacation

Posted: March 29, 2013 in food, fun, travel
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Summer is already here. I have been too busy with work the past few months and I haven’t really taken any long breaks so far. The holy week is the first long break after Christmas and I have taken advantage of it.  The pictures above were taken with my samsung galaxy note 2 during the Christmas vacation last year. We went home to Cagayan for Christmas and visited my dad’s hometown. It was a respite from all the pollution in Manila. Flowers, trees and fresh air! Ah, the provincial life.

I experience this simple, refreshing just once in a while, only when there are long holidays at work. There used to be so much more of these with the past president but PNoy is intent on implementing his ‘tuwid na daan” program and refuses to move around the holidays to create long weekends, which we, the middle working class, can use to go home to our respective provinces.

Anyway, so I went home this Holy week to Nueva Ecija, my mom’s hometown.  It was, as is always the case, a gastronomic fest.  My parents have their own little farm. Not fancy.  Not the haciendero type of thing but they have more than enough livestock, fruits and vegetables for their daily consumption.  Everything is fresh. The vegetables, the eggs, the chicken, the fruits!

For Good Friday, since meat is not allowed, we had to catch fish from the fish pond. But aside from the fish, there were tiny freshwater shrimps too!  Look at that catch!

 

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So we had grilled fish and shrimp for lunch and sinigang for dinner! Yumyumyum! This gastronomic feast goes on for two more days! I have already gained a pound or two and will perhaps gain some more. Haha.. I better go back to the gym to dance all these calories off when I get back to Manila!

 

where have all the fun gone?

Posted: March 25, 2013 in fun, personal
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I believe I was fun then… I think. I traveled a lot. Danced in the rain. Performed in front of people. Bungee jumped. Cartwheeled in public. Played competitive sports.

Where have all the fun gone?

Work has made me so busy, I barely have time to have fun.  Not that work isn’t fun. Hmmm, actually, lately, most times, it isn’t anymore because of the stress and the pressure. But… wait, what was the point I was making? Oh yes, I am too tired most days that all I wanna do after work is be a couch potato or sleep.

Where have all the fun gone?

I was browsing through some of my posts earlier and I chanced upon this: http://wp.me/pSFEP-mM.  It’s almost a year after but I still haven’t even come close to doing one of the items listed here. I am boring. Ugh.

Where have all the fun gone?

The fun is still there, shelved somewhere. I hope. Bits and pieces are creeping through.  I woke up very early this morning to join a mini-dance mob to celebrate our aerobics instructor’s birthday.  That was fun. I resolve to have more of that, more of the fun. I hope to be able to unearth it soon enough before all the toxicity consumes me.

The fun is still there, waiting to be found.

Finding our true selves…

Posted: June 26, 2011 in personal, quotes
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Ken Wilber talks about finding the true self.  He is an American author who formulated the Integral Theory, which combines transpersonal theory with his own insights and thoeries.  I am still trying to grasp the essence of his messages and am far from finding the ‘true self’ that he is referring to but I do agree that the finite things we identify with as being our ‘self’ are not really who we truly are.

Alone

Posted: May 23, 2011 in quotes, tv
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There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone.  It wasn’t cause I thought I’d be happy alone.    It was because I thought if I loved someone, and then it fell apart, I might not make it.  It’s easier to be alone.  Because what if you learn that you need love?  And then you don’t have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shaped your life around it and then, it falls apart?  Can you even survive that kind of pain?  Losing love is like organ damage.  It’s like dying.  The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever.

–Greys Anatomy

feelings

Posted: May 14, 2011 in personal, tv
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I was watching the latest episode of Grey’s Anatomy this evening.  In the last few scenes, Henry was all excited talking to Dr. Altman about getting his job back and becoming independent again.  He was about to tell her that he is doing all those things for her because he loves her when the guy Altman is dating (let’s call him Mr Psych because he is a psychiatrist, I think and I forget what his name is) interrupts.  Altman then shares that she has accepted Mr. Psych’s offer for them (Altman and Psych) to go to Germany.  This crushes Henry’s hopes and instead of telling her what he feels, he asks for a divorce.

Aarrrgh.. What can’t people just say what they feel?  Why can’t we all just do that?  Why don’t we ever allow ourselves to be open and vulnerable, to say what we feel, how we feel?  Why can’t we trust that saying what’s inside is better than building a wall around our hearts keeping all the bitterness locked up? Ugh.